Friday, December 30, 2005

December 29th, 3:26 PM

32 Weeks
2 Days
18 Hours
9 Minutes

Every last instant with him was wonderful.

Friday, December 23, 2005

Kanga, Roo, and Daddy too

Kanga, Roo, and Daddy Too!

Kanga, Roo, and Daddy too
Originally uploaded by apg.

We got to do some Kangaroo Care yesterday. This is currently fighting in my affections for the best day ever. The first time we got to hold him will always be number one on the list, but the first time I got to feel Stuart on my skin, feel his heartbeat, feel him breathing, feel him wriggling...well...I think I may have to start a different list because it's somehow number one too.

On top of that we weren't even expecting to hold him. Stuart's had a respiritory infection which is what put him back on the ventilator. He's been incredibly fussy lately and hasn't really wanted anyone messing with him. So when the head of the NICU came over to us yesterday and asked, "Would you guys like to hold him?" it was sort of a no-brainer.

The answer to that question will always be YES. Even when we're 70-something years old...the answer will always be YES!

Wednesday, December 14, 2005


Best Day Ever

Originally uploaded by apg.

I got to hold Stuart for the first time in 4 weeks. It was the best thing ever.

Sunday, December 11, 2005

Tearing up

Today while I was changing Stuart's diaper he started making his "crying face." We've only been able to tell when he wasn't happy until now because of the way he'd scrunch up his eyes and open his mouth. The ventilator tube and the feeding tube kept him from making any noise.

He was switched to CPAP a few days ago which means no mean ventilator tube down his throat, and when he made that face as I was changing his diaper Andy said "Oh, look he's crying, is he making any noise?"

I bent down and put my ear up to the door of the isolette and there was a very tiny little cry. And then another. Andy rushed around to the side so he could hear too. It's the first time we've heard Stuart's voice since the night almost 4 weeks ago when he was born.

For those parents that are annoyed when their kids scream at the top of their lungs, or wake you up in the middle of the night crying to be changed or should count your blessings. COunt them each and every time you get to hear your child crying.

I never thought I'd feel so good about hearing my baby cry.

Thursday, December 08, 2005

Hands I love


Hands I love
Originally uploaded by apg.

My heart breaks a little every time I look at this picture.

Keep hanging on little man. We're going to make it.

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

Still bad with the elbows

So those that know me, or have read previous entries know that my elbows are the least functioning part of my body.

Yesterday I was carving a turkey breast that a friend had brought over for us, and somehow managed to swing the carving knife into my opposite elbow.

I now have a small cut on my left elbow.

Still really can't figure out how I managed it, but I think I should be put in the Guiness Book of World Records, or something.